So ended up taking another blood test on wednesday and got the results yesterday.

The nurse calls me and tells me that my levels did rise but the doctor thinks that it's a chemical pregnancy. I figured they only went up another 10 but then she told me a little over 100! She said for me to stop taking the progesterone and then I will miscarry.

I can't do it. As long as my number keep going up I'm going to give this little bean a chance. I did all this research about chemical pregnancy's and typical they are diagnosed when hcg levels are declining. I know that it's probably not a viable pregnancy - but stranger things have happened.

So now we wait another week. I still feel pregnant - my boobs hurt, feel like i'm going to puke sometimes and I'm sooo bloated. What a tease.

I'm going to pamper myself tomorrow. Kevin's going to take Xander fishing so I'm going to get my haircut and my nails done. Time to do something for Momma!

Life sucks

I didn't even post yesterday. Too pissed to even talk about. My results were not good.
My progesterone went up to 25 - guess those supplements do work. But my hcg only went up to 265. They should have trippled! I go in today for one more blood test. I think it's over.

And to top it all off, my cars all fucked up. I've got to take that into the shop.

When it rains - it pours.

I feel BLAH!

Well...I went in today to get my 2nd blood test. I couldn't do it in my right arm cause I'm bruised from last thursday so she had to do it out of my left arm. HOLY SHIT - the chick seriously hurt me. It still hurts and I had it done 2 hours ago!
Now it's back to the waiting game.
On another note - I feel like crap. This prometrium crap they have me taking in the am is kicking my ass. About an hour after I take I feel all loopy and completely out of it. Sucks because I need to get this house clean but if I stand too long I feel like I'm going to pass out!
But I'm at the point where I'll do anything to have a successful pregnancy. Got to take the good with the bad, right?
Please got let the results come back good tomorrow! My hcg should be over 1000 and hopefully that progesterone went up over 15.

Noticing new things

I'm feeling a little more confident today. I started my progestrone yesterday, I'm driking tons of water, trying it healthy things and really trying to avoid those darn cigarettes.
My (o)(0)'s are sore off and on. My tummy is sooo bloated and if I let my hair air dry - I've got some wave going on. If I don't eat right when I need to eat - I got very nauseous. All good things - bring on the puking!

My first entry

I've never used a blog before. I wanted to start a diary - something for my children to see in the furture for them to understand how much I love them.

My reason for starting this is a crazy little miracle that's happened in our lives. Before I tell - a little background.

I'm married to the most wonderful, sexy handsome guy in the world. I have to honestly say that we happily married. We've been together for 11 years - married for 5 1/2. He's the reason why I have such a great life - my reason for living.

I have 2 children right now. Addison is 15 - gosh that age sucks. But he is an extremly intelligent, handsome and polite boy. I had him when I was 20. He's my first true love. I can't imagine what my life would be like if I didn't have him. My youngest little boy is Xander. He just turned 4 and cracks me up. He's at such a great kid - reminds me sooo much of his father. I am truly blessed to have these 3 wonderful men in my life.

Around 3 years ago we started trying to have another child. We finally got pregnant 2 years ago - it ended up in a miscarriage. We were absolutely devasted. After another year of trying I was told that I was going thru early menopause. My chances of getting pregnant were less than 10%. My only option was egg donor or adoption. Again - devastation. Which now brings us here.

By some miracle - I found out yesterday that I am pregnant. As you can imagine - we are both shocked. I'm excited but scared and that the same time. I can't go thru having another miscarriage. But I don't want be negative either. I know that can't be healthy either. So now we wait - today I get my blood tests results back to see how my progestrone is and at what level my hcg is.

This is going to be a journey - and this blog is going to be my oasis. A place for me to vent, track things and try to keep my peace of mind. I'm praying that someday this little bean in my belly is going to read this. So he/she will now how much of a blessing they are and how badly they were wanted.

Well.....I received my blood tests results
HCG - 252 Not bad! It actually came back a little higher than they expected!
Progestrone - 6.9 - Not good - they would like to see it at 15 or higher *sigh*

So now it's the sit and wait. I'm taking progestrone supplements to help support the pregnancy and searching everywhere on the internet to find someone who has had a successful pregnancy starting out with low progestrone.

Monday I go back in for another blood test to see if the numbers are rising.
Please say a prayer for me and my little peanut!